HaPpY HaLloWeEN!

Here are some pictures of our activities last night at Area 51. Had a bunch of fun, and saw lots of friends. Hope everyone stayed safe and had fun as well!

Shua, me and Kollin

Another one of my pregnant friends, Anne and me. No one recognized her!

I Can Haz Brains?

Yay! We're Zombies! Just getting into the Halloween Spirit! See what you look like as a Zombie. :)

25 Week Ultrasound

He is definitely bigger than last time! He is now weighing 1 lb. 12 oz. The nurse said that he is measuring big for how far along I am. So I could be either a week and a half further along than we thought, or he just had a growth spurt. I hope he doesn't get too big! I'm not that big of a girl!

Halloween Costume

Ok, so I tried to wait to post any pictures of my costume until Halloween was closer or past. But I am just so excited I couldn't wait!

As you can see, I am going to be a skeleton. We were just going to get a black shirt, but found one almost ready made at Wal-Mart. All we (Kollin) had to add was the baby. He also painted my pants, and the gloves are ones he had already had.

I love this idea that a friend gave me for a maternity Halloween costume, and it also goes perfectly with Area 51, since that is where we will be!

Happy Birthday Mommy

Today is my Mother's birthday. She is 61. She left this world almost 7 years ago. Sometimes it still seems like a bad dream that I will never wake up from. But I know that she is now my guardian angel and keeps me safe.

I love you so much Mom! Happy Birthday! And many more!

Will it Come?

I'm starting to get a little worried about my attitude towards kids right now. I am still very excited for my little boy to get here, and can't wait to be a mother. I have always wanted to be a mom. There was even a point that I had decided to trash that whole idea, and it wasn't going to happen for me. I felt I was too old to be having my first child. I didn't think I had the patience to deal with a whiny, crying, suck the life out of me small person. I am so scared that the whole patience thing will not come to me, and I am going to hate my baby. I thought I was too greedy to want to bring a little one into this world that would be depending completely on me, and I just wouldn't want to deal with it and end up being a dead beat mom. Some of these thoughts are coming back... but oops! Too late! No getting out of it now. Me being so sick through my entire pregnancy hasn't helped with that much either. It makes me wonder if I am going to resent my child for putting me through this crap. I am hoping that it is just the pregnancy hormones talking, but in a way know that it isn't. For a long time even before I was pregnant, unless I was around a perfectly well mannered child or baby, I would get very annoyed and anxious with anything that kid would do. It was always the best birth control back in the day. Now, however, it is scaring the crap out of me. There are things that I just need to keep thinking about, and be sure to remember. My mom turned 30 shortly after my parents adopted me. I'm only one year ahead of that, so the age thing is ok. Also, outside of Utah, this is perfectly normal. Right? Maybe? I have never been a patient person. Just ask my dad. Or Kollin. Or pretty much anyone that has known me for longer than... oh... five minutes? Kollin always tells me about the whole "love at first sight" thing once I see him, and that the patience will come. I always try to remind myself that my Heavenly Father would not dish out anything to me that I could not handle. That my Mother will be watching over me, and make sure I am ok (ok, now I have tears streaming down my face). But I still worry. Then about the whole greed thing. I know I have been quite a greedy person in my life. But there have also been times when I have given all of myself and not thought of what is in it for me? When I think back over time, I think the non-greedy outweigh the greedy. But that may just be me trying to find something good about myself. Anyone else have a different opinion on that? With me being soooo sick (blah), I have known women that have been MUCH more sick than I have been. I just need to remember that at least I am not needing to go to the ER for an IV drip to keep nutrients in me, and am not constantly puking my guts out. Feeling incredibly sick all. the. time. doesn't look so bad. But anyway, thank you for putting up with my little rant. I hope all of this will just go away, although I doubt it, but I can still hope!

Wayne's World! Party time! Excellent!

Introducing....

My new nephew WAYNE!

Born: 10.11.10

Weight: 9lbs 10oz

Welcome to the family!

The baby boy family basketball team is almost complete!

xoxoxo

Not going as I expected...

So here is the starting of the baby blanket I am attempting to crochet. I need to make 15 of the white squares, 8 of the blue ones, and 7 yellow. And they are supposed to be squares! They are looking pretty rectangular to me. eh.

I hope the white ones will turn out ok. They are supposed to have a star in them. Not sure if you can really see it or not....

As far as I know, I'm using the correct hook size and everything. Oh well. Not quite what i was expecting them to look like so far, but we'll see how it turns out once it's all put together. Then again, not too bad for not having crocheted anything in at least a few years. Keep your fingers crossed for me!

Just Over Half Way!

I am 22 weeks along now, almost 23. I have been really sick through this whole thing. I keep trying to stay positive about it, and try to remember that it will all be worth it in the end. Kollin has been such a great cheerleader for me, and supporting me when I'm feeling down. We have already done a bunch of shopping for baby clothes and what not. What do you expect from 2 of the worst shopaholics known to man? We've gotten some really cute stuff, but decided we should stop, cuz you never know what can come out of any baby showers that might be thrown.

These ones are my favorites so far... of course.

Kollin's dad has also sent us this very cute Scentsy for his room. awww!

I definitely have a baby belly now. Some people that have seen this picture say I have nothing, but I feel huge. But I also know I'm only going to be getting bigger as time goes on. I'm thinking that there is no hiding the fact that I've got a little boy bun in my oven now. But also, if you saw me, and didn't know what I looked like before I was preggers, you wouldn't really figure that I am yet. So weird.

Earlier this week I ended up needing to resign from my job since I haven't worked regularly since June. My FMLA ran out, so I didn't have anymore job protection. At least I was able to voluntarily resign, so I will be rehireable whenever I am ready to go back. Let's just hope that they will be hiring at that time! I loved my job, and hated to leave. With all this extra time I have doing absolutely nothing around the house, I've taken up crocheting again. Also among trying to keep the house clean, which I am not doing very good at since I can only get up and move around for about 5 or 10 minutes before I get really sick and need to lie down. I feel so guilty that Kollin is carrying the brunt of everything. ESPECIALLY since he got up early this morning (dude doesn't know how to sleep in), and cleaned the house while I was still snoozing in bed. Jerk. At least he just went down for a nap, and I'm going to try to finish up some of the cleaning he didn't get to.

Anyway, with the crochet, I have made my first pair of baby booties. They turned out pretty good for my first try in my opinion. I'll probably make a gazillion more before he gets here, so he most likely won't have an issue keeping his tootsies warm. I am also working on a baby blanket. It will hopefully turn out really cute. Lord knows that I have plenty of time to sit and work on it before he is here.

We were also able to see The Little Man at the zoo this week. It was really fun to see Kollin be with his son. Kollin gets so happy when he is with him, and has so much fun watching him.

Ok, so you can totally see my baby bump in this one! eek!